Oh… I really love this track (the YouTube video). It really reflects what and how I'm feeling right now. I feel that I am constructing a world of lies and fantasies to everybody, just only to be accepted in this intolerant society around me.
I really miss my friends in El Salvador. They used to tell me that if I go to live here in the US, I will regret it soon because I would feel very lonely. I hate that they were right. I used to told them that Vegas is a very tolerant city, maybe much more than San Salvador, and that I would be very happy doing what I like there. But something was unexpected: The Financial Crisis. Unfortunately for me, the economy were so screwed up and the unemployment so high, that destroyed my dreams and plans to stay and live in Vegas.
But not everything is bad after all. The only thing that I need is some kind of angel that would tolerates me the best. Some kind of friend that would be there when I need him. And a confident who I could tell him almost all my things that are inside my head (things that most of them I cannot tell to any “ordinary” person). I don’t expect perfection. I know that perfection doesn’t exist. I need just only a person like those thing that I just said.
Oh, by the way, this is the first time that I post in English, so if you see “misplaced” words in this post, don’t blame me. I think that my English is not very good to have a very fluent conversation with a native English speaker, but at least I can write it, and I can express myself with it. How good is my written English? What do you think about this post?
Videoclip above and music by Sarah McLachlan is Copyright from Arista Records. Not copyright violation is intended.